I was reminded just tonight that another year has passed. I dislike the title to this post because it sounds so negative, when in fact, we feel so positive! Less than a year left to go, and our daughter will be able to come home again! It's exciting and uncertain and I must admit how afraid I am. Afraid something will go wrong, afraid of everything I guess. How will we get her Visa? What Visa should we apply for? What if they won't give it?
But I keep reminding myself.....IN LESS THAN A YEAR I WILL BE SEEING MY CHILD AGAIN! Yes, she's 19 now. Yes, she will be 20 in less than a year. And yes, when your child grows up and becomes an adult, she's still your child!
This time around I know I am her Mom. This time around I won't be afraid to hug her, to touch her face, to marvel in amazement that God would smile down on me in such a way! We have had the opportunity to parent 40 children in 8 short years. We don't know what the next 8 years will be like but Brooke will be a part of our home again.
If Brooke were to come home now, she would be sharing a room with Cody. She would hold our baby and laugh out loud! Brooke asked for a baby sister and we are hoping to adopt our foster baby sometime in 2011. Brooke will also have a sister closer to her age. Our oldest foster daughter is 16. Four girls! 19, 16, 11 and 1! Maybe sometime we should think about adopting a boy just so Tom doesn't feel so lonely in the world haha!
We would love to make our trip to Thailand into a mission trip. In my dreams I have often thought of renting a place and hosting mission groups over a period of 3 months. I can see us working in the orphanages and visiting missionaries, helping them and walking beside them.
Pray with us. Pray the money comes for us to go to Thailand next Winter. Pray we apply for the correct Visa, pray things go smoothly and most of all pray for guidance!
